So, I was at Acen, which is the biggest anime con in the Midwest, for the past three days. It was a blast! I cosplay end as Fem!Break for the last two days and got so many compliments, all thanks to my master seamstress of a friend. The panels were all either histarical or very well done, or both. We ran into friends of ours all three days, and met new friends as well. All in all, it was the much needed break from reality I so desperately needed. It's almost a shame I have to go back to the real world tomorrow, but finals are in two weeks and then summer break, as well as anime Midwest. However, in all of this, I realized something....
A long time time ago, when I first became part of all that I am now, I was a very conservative person, always worried of what others would think of me. It may not have seemed like it, but I was really concerned with how others saw me. So, when I started cosplaying, becoming part of this world, it scared me. I was frightened at even the thought of cosplaying, or anything deviating from the norm. But, in the last few weeks I realized that things have changed. With all the praise and love I got at the con, I really realized for the first time that what I am is nothing to be afraid of. My love of cosplaying, my shipping of same sex couples, my writing fan fiction as well as my own origonallity work, it's nothing to fear. I shouldn't hide behind the mask and blindly follow society's guidelines just because no one ever deviates without being ostracized a little. If anything, my differences are to be celebrated, even if I lose the support of some people. And if people leave because of things like that, they really don't matter that much anyway, do they?
No longer will I hide who I am, but show my true self when I can, let them stare and jeer, all that matter are those that accept you.